as i approach a milestone birthday i am starting to re-evaluate what is truly important to me. I'm starting to question whether i am truly living the life i want. i have struggled against society's norms my whole adult life. i'm a free spirit that needs to be free or i'll suffocate. our lifestyle is somewhat unconventional. we are spontaneous and revel in the idea of freedom.
in this life my reality is that i can't have all. it has taken so long to say that its okay with me. have a pouted and been sad for myself at times? absoutely i have. i want a cottage with the beach as my front yard. i want to open my bedroom windows and hear the ocean waves lapping the shore. i close my eyes and i can see my white gauzy curtains blowing in the breeze. i want pastel furniture with fresh flowers everywhere.
what i've learned so far is that if i have to chose being having and doing...i wanna do! so i'm gonna suck it up and make things happen. the first thing on my list is visiting Ireland. i've always been very proud to be of irish heritage and i can't wait to see those rolling emerald hills in person.
don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid it will never start...